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whoa. . . . . wait, its not about me???

My husband’s call woke me up this morning.  He says there is no way I will get out until the plow comes.  So I sleep in a little and get up about an hour later.

After saying Good Morning! to Jesus, I ask Him to help me deny myself.  Then I go about getting my breakfast and reading my devotion.   I do my laundry and start planning my day.  Stranded, as the snow plow hasn’t come by yet, I think of all the things needed to be done around here if I can’t get into the office.  Something, some small thought in the back of my heart, starts me singing this song.  I have been humming Christmas carols for weeks now, it surprised me that this came to me.  Have you heard it?  Here are the lyrics: 

It's all about You, Jesus
And all this is for You
For Your glory and your fame
It's not about me
As if You should do things my way
You alone are God
And I surrender to your ways

Jesus, lover of my soul
All consuming fire is in Your gaze
Jesus, I want you to know
I will follow you all my days
For no one else in history is like you
And history itself belongs to you
Alpha and Omega, You have loved me
And I will share eternity with You


Here’s the youtube on it – listen if you can – I think you will love it.
http://youtu.be/dD-ZdMOx_HY

I still remember the first time I heard this song.  It penetrated my soul.  Its not a song I had ever heard before and smack dab in the middle of “myself”, I couldn’t get the tune or the words out of my head (or my heart). 

It was one of the darkest times of my life – this time of myself – oh, don’t get me wrong, I thought I was happy – I even “looked” happy – but I was so selfish and deceitful and full of MYSELF – putting what I wanted before my husband and children.  Thinking my happiness was MUCH MORE IMPORTANT than doing the right thing – ever been there?

I don’t know why I am remembering all this now . . . . the tune of the song haunts me, really.  It brings me back to where I was and never want to be again. 

Why this song now, Lord?  Why this reminder?  I wanted to blog about the whiteness of our soul, Lord – with the snow and the beauty of Your creation, I thought that would be so cool.  . . . . oh wait, Lord, its all about You, isn’t it?  Its not about me.  What do you want me to say here?

And the song’s words come to me again.  Thank You, Lover of my soul – consume me! 

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  1. UnknownDecember 10, 2012 at 2:25 PM

    Wow Deb... you really know how to put things back into perspective once again. Last week wasn't so great for us, D and I prayer together over the issue we were dealing with... but this week it's all looking better. Thanks for the reminder of who the world really revolves around.

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  2. AnonymousDecember 10, 2012 at 8:21 PM

    Deb... I think God was reaching out to me, thru YOU.
    Dulce Blume

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